01.Apr.2015
I´ve been thinking of my friend Atila lately. We spent the eclipse together and now we are far away, funnily enough we also spent New Year’s Eve, we were there for each other when being depressed and even when I just needed to use his toilet. I´ve been thinking of how he comes and goes, how he was there but at the same time he seemed blurry -10% white- as he says. I have also been feeling lost, lost and found. But mainly I’ve been trying to stay focused, to do not overthink, to get surprised by the new environment. And yet, I still have the feeling that I am fighting a losing battle. I wish Atila was here, I wish we will go for a walk and show him this new city, I wish he was feeling as lost as I am and at the same time he will make a funny comment and make me laugh. I am realizing that he is important for me, I was a bit blind. I had a lazy eye when I was with him.
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