Chapala (2013), 15.Jul.2015
I find no comfort in the past, I find no comfort in the present. When I asked you to comfort me I couldn’t help feeling empty. I feel I do not fit, I feel that everything is changing. I have no ground, no comfort zone, no satisfaction. It hurts to run away from myself and being reachable over and over. It hurts wanting to leave it all behind and knowing that in fact, that is no answer. It hurts to be awake, knowing that you are awake too with no satisfaction. It hurts knowing that we are not connected, that I lost all kind of security, that I lost all kind of love in exchange for letting someone in who prefers to look the other way, who plays with power, who is more interested on whatever is not real, not pure, not worth fighting for. It hurts to know I am running away from you but I can always find you.